Name: Lucien Dallas R. (I go by both Lucien and Dallas, idc which you use :))
Gender/Pronouns: Male (he/him)
Age: 15
Birthday: 06.10.04 (06 October 2004)
Zodiac signs: Libra sun, Cancer moon, Libra ascendant
Height: 5'5.5"
Religion: Wicca
Languages: German & English
(Sprachen: (kleine) Deutsch & Englisch)
oahu, HI
Colors: Black/Red/Purple
Food: Pasta
Music Genre: Rock/Metal/Rap/Indie/LoFi/Punk/2000's Pop
Bands/Musicians: Slipknot/Marilyn Manson/Rammstein/FOB/Lil Peep/In This Moment/Voxout/Evanescence
Games: Sally Face, Club Penguin, CS:GO, DDLC, Wizard 101, LoL
no i am not trying to be attention seeking, i just want this info out there so that you know what to expect to read about because this is what i deal with on a daily basis. it is also for context.
I suffer from: dysthymia (chronic depression), social anxiety, adhd, gender dysphoria (ftm trans), anorexia
I may have, but no diagnosis/consultation with my doctor: bpd, ptsd
Trauma: childhood verbal/emotional/physical abuse/emotional neglect, sex that could be considered rape by some, but i wouldnt really call it that? idk uncomfy sex, and gaslighting
Triggers: yelling/loud noises, sexual/pornographic material, visual representations of c*tting, animal abuse, physical violence, pro ana or toxic diet/weight loss related shit, certain anatomical words/references/images (mainly things that would trigger my dysphoria like charts of female/male reproductive systems, or things that highlight the differences between men and women. this one is iffy and varies from time to time, but please be careful and limited in discussing such things with or around me :))
I AM NOT PROFESSIONALLY DIAGNOSED WITH GENDER DYSPHORIA OR ANOREXIA BUT I MEAN THERES A CERTAIN POINT WITH BOTH WHERE ITS OBVIOUS. TRUST ME ON THIS. I ALSO AM NOT CLAIMING TO ACTUALLY HAVE PTSD OR BORDERLINE. I UNDERSTAND BOTH, ESPECIALLY BPD, ARE VERY COMPLEX AND HARD TO DIAGNOSE PROFESSIONALLY, LET ALONE BY YOURSELF. I AM SIMPLY SAYING THAT I SUSPECT I MAY HAVE THEM AND THAT I HAVE MOST/ALL OF THE SYMPTOMS OF BOTH AND HAVE SIMILAR/THE SAME STRUGGLES. I DONT THINK ANYONE WILL GIVE ME SHIT OR EVEN CONTACT ME THROUGH HERE BUT IM JUST SAYING THIS NOW.